When My Voice Disappeared - A Behind-the-Scenes Glimpse into My Healing

For most of last year, I was showing up on video regularly - twice a week, like clockwork. I’d speak about skincare, about radiance, about rituals and routines. I felt in my flow.

Then one day… I couldn’t.

My throat tightened. My chest closed. My mind blanked.

And the more I tried to push through, the worse it got.

It was as if my body was trying to protect me from saying something I wasn’t ready to say out loud yet.

I Disappeared… But Not By Choice

I didn’t vanish because I was lazy or unmotivated.

I disappeared because I was in the middle of something I couldn’t name yet.

There was no burnout. No illness.

Just a deep, inexplicable silence inside me.

A void.

I’d show up to create something - and the words would flee. I couldn’t even speak them if I tried.

Even writing felt hollow, like I was dragging my soul through treacle.

At first, I was frustrated. I had so much to say - but no voice to say it with.

Then I felt ashamed. I should’ve been stronger. Clearer. More “on.”

And eventually… I surrendered.

I stopped fighting the silence and began listening to it.

What I Heard in the Silence

What I found was this:

I was outgrowing my old identity.

For years, I played it safe - speaking about skincare, staying inside the lines, not saying too much that might challenge the norm.

But deep down, I knew my work was more than that.

I wasn’t just teaching women how to glow on the outside.

I was helping them reclaim the parts of themselves they’d buried.

Their softness.

Their wildness.

Their feminine power.

Their ancestral pain.

Their radiance.

And I couldn’t keep speaking small while holding that kind of space.

I Was Becoming the SkinGlow Alchemist, a title that was given to me during a channeling session in early 2024. 

The shift was spiritual, energetic, and very real.

I was being asked to step into the full frequency of my work - not just as a skincare educator, but as the SkinGlow Alchemist.

Someone who could:

• Weave 30+ years of holistic study into potent rituals
• Help women clear inherited trauma and ancestral beliefs about beauty and worthiness
• Call in the goddess, the shaman, the medicine woman within
• Hold space for soul-level healing… and show up in her own embodied light

It was a rebirth - and births are messy.

How I Found My Way Back

What brought me home wasn’t a strategy. It wasn’t forcing myself back online.

It was ritual.

It was rest.

It was walking barefoot on earth and letting the bush rewire my nervous system.

I returned to drumming and chanting.

To holding onto sacred plant essences to bring me back into my body .

To visualisation, soul retrieval, ancestral reconnection.

And slowly, I came back to life.

What I Now Know

This work - my business  it’s not just about skin.

It’s about reclaiming the parts of ourselves we’ve silenced.

And it’s about creating space for our daughters and their daughters to rise up in their own light - without needing to hide, shrink, or conform.

We’re healing forward and backward in time.

This year, I held the intention to go global.

I didn’t chase it - but the opportunity came to me.

Because when we’re in alignment, life meets us.

If you’ve felt hidden, blocked, or silenced - I see you.

And if you’re ready to come back into your glow, your fullness, your field of radiant magnetism - I’m right here, walking with you.

Because it’s time.

Want to keep receiving this kind of real talk and radiant healing?

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